When I look at the picture to the left, I am reminded of a poem I’d read in the 5th grade by Robert Frost called The Road Not Taken. I will never forget its empowering message that spoke to me at that young age.
In life, we have to make choices. The power to choose is one of, if not, the most powerful gift we have been given.
I’ll never forget the day I made the life-changing decision to leave my old self behind.
Aside from feeling the adrenaline rush from the fear of impending doom, the fear of the unknown, and the fear of the future, I boldly and bravely said “goodbye” to this old self.
It was time to leave it behind.
I’ve had it.
I was stretched out on the ER bed and the doctor was not happy to see me there again. That was the last straw.
Of course I felt alone. No one knew what I was doing. I had no idea what the outcome would be. But, I didn’t care. I didn’t have much time to think.
Perhaps, I didn’t even know what I was really doing.
I remember how scary it felt.
As intense as the fear I’d felt, and as much as I wanted to stay in my comfort zone, I knew what I had to do.
In order to heal, I had to do something. And fast. I had already done everything I could and had access to, but somehow, I still wasn’t healing.
I reasoned that whatever I needed to do, it would have to be huge for a big shift to occur.
For all of us, taking some kind of action is required. It’s different for everyone. It could be letting go of a toxic relationship. It could be setting healthier boundaries. It could be leaving a job.
For me, it was leaving that old self behind. And that was only the beginning and the first step.
There was more to do.
Despite knowing that, and deciding to make the change, it was still uncomfortable.
Sometimes, the intensity of the fear was so great it prevented me from wanting to make that change and taking the necessary step.
I felt fearful because I didn’t know what was going to happen.
What if I make the wrong choice?
Then I asked myself:
What if I don’t make that choice?
Then I realized that was fear speaking to me.
Ultimately, Truth prevailed.
Fear aside, I stepped into uncharted territory anyway.
No matter how uncomfortable, it does require getting out of this small self in order for transformation to occur.
There’s always going to be those times where the material side tries to get the better of us. There’s going to be times where you’ll feel like you want to hold on to the familiar and not be willing to let go. There’ll be times where you’ll feel uncertainty.
I know because letting go is hard to do. I remember feeling resistant because I felt so safe and secured in this tiny box that others have defined for me; how I should be, but not really how to truly be.
When I was ready to leave that old self behind, it felt as if I was going to the airport and had left my “baggage” behind.
All the years of beliefs, perceptions, and judgments were packed neatly into that suitcase. Everything I thought was at one point important was there. Everything I thought I had needed was there. For years, I’d carried and lugged this suitcase around, protecting the contents from scrutiny and shielding them from possible threat of change.
But, that day I sat on the ER bed, I realized the contents of that suitcase no longer served me.
On many levels, it never really did; only I had thought it did.
So I left it.
At first, it felt very uncomfortable. Eventually, that pain passed.
What’s interesting is that when I made the decision to let go, the Universe seemed to have conspired with me because new opportunities and paths opened up.
For me, if I hadn’t boldly and bravely done what I had done, there’s no me of today.
The power was in that moment when I made the decision, a decision, to let go, to go where I’ve never gone before.
Taking that risk was necessary in order to see the change I wanted to see.
To paraphrase Gandhi, to be that change.
When we want to see a change in our health, sometimes it means leaving the outdated model behind and keeping an open-mind to something new.
When we’re steeped into one way of thinking, not only is our body used to it, a particular outcome is expected, and when it’s not met, alarm goes off.
That’s because there’s a subconscious memory of it and neural pathways created that locked us in. That’s why when we’re temporary relieved of a symptom, we’re quick to determine that that method works. Then, when the same problem occurs, we look to that same solution, and again, expect the same result; whereas when we try some other methods to relieve of the same problem and they work differently, we’re quick to assume, judge, and denounce they don’t work.
That’s kind of how the material or human side of us works. But, ultimately, true healing comes from within. All healing that is. It’s never anything outside of ourselves.
Beth Daniel, co-founder of Quantum Techniques (QT) and practitioner, says:
“Accept that your body is fully capable of healing itself! With the beliefs of Western thought and its philosophies, we have been taught that healing requires something outside of ourselves and our bodies, particularly a drug of some type, to be “cured.” Learning to let go of this common belief and accepting that you were created by the Divine with everything you need to live a healthy life, will help you clear blocks that prevent your body from healing itself.”
That’s right. We have everything we need to live a healthy life. We are health itself.
Going back to that day when I decided to leave my old self, I had acted out of faith and not fear. And that took trust and lots of it.
I figured that if I take action now, and not in some distant future, and do something different, the outcome would be different.
What I do today, will affect me tomorrow.
I could, of course, choose to remain where I was. If I choose to remain where I was, I just had to make sure I didn’t complain about it.
Choosing to remain where I was is certainly more comfortable and easier, but it’s just another way of copping out of what I am here to learn. I didn’t want that.
Remember what I said earlier that many opportunities opened up that weren’t there before until I let go?
QT showed up.
That’s what happens in life when we let go of attachments to any outcome and simply trust the process of life to lead us and to take us where we need to go.
When I let go, I recognize and become aware that the Good has always been there.
The difference between now and then is that now I see the Good whereas I couldn’t before when I held on.
Be willing to let go.
Robert Frost, The Road Not Taken